It's a lot

grudges are heavy things. and they do not age well. they fill the chest with a souring and they close the windows of the heart.........when we are young we carry a fire we think proves we are alive. we are here., we think we have something to prove to the world. every slight feels like a mountain the whole world sees, every wound feels like a loss........... that grudge you carry feels like it can protect you from being hurt again, it cant. it can only harden you from the beauty that is near you now, waiting to be invited in........as the years pass you will notice that those offenses you once were willing to fight over are now nothing but grains of sand you laugh off and cast away. the insults that once burned are now just words that mean nothing. once we realize this and look back and see how trivial some things are. what we once felt so strongly about is now just "life", we can begin to forgive. and that forgiveness and letting go isnt so much forgiveness of others but of ourselves. a permission of sorts to lay it down and watch it fade away. a knowing that that person and that time dousnt define who we are. it defines who they are and they are now in the past. its time to move forward.
great advice, I agree.
 
I have only one person who is an enemy in life. Unlike other individuals who have multiple enemies, the urge to really break this person's skull is all I can think of and the reason that I use to justify why I should do that would be because I only have that person as an enemy so why not? I (literally) pray that my anger would subside and the grudge goes away.
I know the feeling Roffin. You can imagine getting rid of this person but you can't imagine what it would be like if you did. You seem like a nice guy and they are probably not so you are the winner and give yourself a pat on the back for your ability to not get rid of them. These people I believe are on a lower level of existence so we can only pray they see themselves one day and feel the love. Love always wins.
 
I was feeling deeply discouraged about my current enterprise. Then I stumbled across this gem. It spoke to me, loudly!

'There is freedom waiting for you, on the breezes of the sky.
And you ask, "What if I fall?"
Oh, but my darling, what if you fly?'
 
I was feeling deeply discouraged about my current enterprise. Then I stumbled across this gem. It spoke to me, loudly!

'There is freedom waiting for you, on the breezes of the sky.
And you ask, "What if I fall?"
Oh, but my darling, what if you fly?'
I love that, Garnet. And I totally agree that you will fly!